When life gives you beans make dip..

So much has happened. Today was ANOTHER doctors apt. This time it was to get my test results from this last blood drawing. I think this has been the hardest visit yet. It is always draining for me to go and I know the rest of the day is going to be a wash. I come home just wanting to sleep the day away and not think about any of it. To some it might seem so trivial. I mean it is just some hormonal imbalance. But to people with it is life changing and can efect every aspect of your life if you allow it to. Today I was told that my T4 is low (thyroid) that my progesterone is really low (which makes Josiah even more of a miracle baby) and that I am insulin resistant and pre-diabetic. This I was NOT expecting to hear at all. I had always assumed I was insulin resistant but had never been tested for it. I dont know what I was thinking I would hear but it hit me like a ton of bricks. The last thing I want is to be diabetic. Especially at 23. My life is just beginning. I have heard a handful of doctors say that they would rather have cancer than diabetes. Lovely. I am also estrogen dominate so my body is wide open for cancers.
There is no doubt I have to get moving on this. We are seeing a medical doctor and also a Functional Medicine Doctor. They both a two completely different routes for me to take to get to the same end. We are now having to truly trust the Lord that he will give us peace with the direction we need to go. The doctor said I probably have 1-2 years before the diabetes would set in.
It amazes me how intricate the Lord created our hormones to be. If one little thing is off everything is thrown. I am ready for this journey to be over. I am ready to close this chapter and start my life with my husband and my baby. Poor Adam got the short end of the stick and was engaged to a completely different Allie then he is married to today. That breaks my heart.
I believe the Lord is teaching me to learn to be joyful in all things and in ALL situations. I dont want this to inhibit who he has created me to be. Its a hard lesson at times but I can see him working and that is exciting! Praise the Lord. He has never forsaken us and ALWAYS gives us the peace and direction we need WHEN we need it. No sooner and no later. He is good to us.
I start my liver detox on Saturday. This is going to be a true test on perseverance. There is a very strict diet to go along with it which includes beans and more beans. Did I mention I DO NOT like beans?! Maybe baked beans but that's it. Ugh.
When life gives you beans make dip.