and life throws you a curveball.

so friday night I had a photo girls overnight where 14 fabulous photography women from the indy area crowded into a hotel suite and we shared our inspirations, struggles and joys of photography. It was wonderful.  I was so enjoying the time with them at the cheesecake facotry for dinner when I recieved a phone call from Adam.  He had the worst news (well almost) that he had been laid off his job that day.  The company just didnt have any more money to pay him.  No two week notice.  Just your done.  They took the company car that day as well. Talk about a low blow.  Now I know many families do it with just one car and I know it is possible.  But when you wake up in the morning with a "stable" income and two cars and then by dinner you have no income and one car it kind of shakes you.  Adam was sweet enought to tell me to not think about it for the night and to enjoy my time with the girls.  I tried the best I could and I can say that I walked away with some wonderful ideas and hopefully new friendships with some awesome ladies.

Lets back up a week.  We just got back from a photography conference on Tuesday and we were so pumped for where we were going to be taking the business.  We havent really devoted a ton of time to photography the past year and so we havent grown just maintained.  Thats our fault.  Needless to say we do NOT make enough to live off of.  So is this "perfect" timing to start doing photography full time? That would be so great and so much help to have Adam helping with marketing and getting our name out there. (Lets face it I am TERRIBLE at both)

Selfishly I then think about my diet and health and how can I continue with getting better when we have no money to put towards it. I know the Lord will provide but it still is hard to justify spending as much money as we have been on supplements and organic food for me when we have nothing coming in.  It has made me frustrated then that I am even in this predicament.  Why cant I be a normal 23 year old that can live off of mac and cheese and ramen noodles without the fear of wrecking everything I have worked so hard to fix so far.

Needless to say we are in a "valley" of life right now and we dont know which direction to go.

I feel better after venting.. thanks for listening.

and because a blogpost without a picture is boring here is one of Josiah taken by my friend Kiera.. (I forget how old he is here.. geesh)